Me Again

Welp, I have decided that I am going to get back to the old Steph, the woman who felt like the world was at her fingertips & like nothing could get her down!

I want that back. I want to be fierce, strong, saucy, & amazing! Even if I am the only one who I thinks I am all of those things, at least I will feel them again!

Most of all though, I just want to be happy! I want to wake up every morning, with a smile on my face, & feel in control of my life! I am going to make it happen.

I have started working out everyday...Ok, I am going to start today! Even if I don't lose weight & get my pre-baby body back, at least I will get some endorphins pumping through my veins & feel better. I just want to be healthy! Also, I am going to start eating healthier! No more Dr. Pepper with every meal! [Don't get me wrong, I can't say goodbye to my dear friend for good, I am just going to cut back.] Less fried foods, more veggies! Endorphins & healthy-ness running through my body!

I've decided to whiten my teeth too. Oh yeah, I went & spent a bajillion dollars on some white strips & I am going to do them everyday! Not once a month, not once a week, but everyday until I do the whole pack! I spent the money, I want the whiter teeth!

I may or may not hit the tanning beds just a FEW times as well. Don't lecture me on how bad it is for me & blah blah blah! I know. I know it's not amazing for me, BUT I do know that it makes me feel better about myself. It makes me feel pretty & like I have less flaws in my skin! So, tanning a few times! Maybe. It's on my list of things I may do. Because I wouldn't mind looking like her again...

White teeth, tan skin, & skinny! Ahh. Yes please! I like me now, I like the person I am. I LOVE being a momma!!! I do miss doing the little things to lift me up though. I spend every waking [and sleeping, to be honest] moment thinking about Connor & how to be a top notch momma to him, because that is the most important thing to me, but I have been doing it for 5 months now & I am kinda getting the hang of it! I think I am getting the hang of it enough to take a little bit of time to do the things that make me feel like me again!

So, here's hoping I am not just a bunch of talk & that I can get healthy, happy, & beautiful again! Let's take care of me to enable me to be the best momma on the planet!

Friday Confessional

I confess…
I’m starting my new job today & I’m pretty nervous.
I actually feel like I could puke I’m so nervous.

I confess…
Everyone keeps telling me not to be nervous, but I still am.
Even though I’m nervous, I kinda know I’m gonna rock =]

I confess…
Last night I had cucumbers & a Monster for dinner.
It was half healthy, half not healthy, & fully delicious.

I confess…
I’m really excited to go shopping tomorrow for new clothes.
We’re also going to a movie & dinner - that’ll be awesome.

I confess…
I’m REALLY going to miss all my “Reese time” now that I’ll be working.
We’ll just have to start staying up later, so we can have more hours together.

I confess…
I’m sad to lose computer time.
I know I spend way too much time on the computer, but I will still miss it.

I confess…
I worked out everyday this week & I feel great!
I ran a mile without stopping & I “whooped” out loud I was so proud of myself.

I confess…
I want another blue Monster - I can’t stop thinking about their deliciousness.
They might be better than the green ones.

I confess…
This has been kind of a long post, but I also feel like I talked about nothing.
I better get my booty out the door to my first day of work! I guess I’m a real grown up now. Wish me luck!!!

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Have a great weekend everyone!! I shall miss you all while I am at work.

Thankful Freaking Thursday

Ok, I've had a week of Monday's this week & I've been a grump, but it's time to put everything into perspective & make my thankful list. So here I go...

I'm Thankful For...
-Being able to spend time with family; we've had a lot of that the last few weeks & it's been good.
-Exercise. No matter how bad my day is going, if I get up & exercise I always feel at least a little bit better.
-God answering prayers. I have a job interview on Monday. Nothing is for sure, it's just an interview, but I am so grateful to be able to get out there & try!
-Dr. Pepper. It really helps me have a better day when I need a little pick-me-up.
-Friends & being able to VENT! Sometimes a girl just needs to let it all out.
-All of my wonderful bloggy friends. I always get nice, sweet feedback on my posts, but I was having a bad day yesterday & I got some amazing comments that really helped me. Thank you so much ladies.
-Windows Live Writer. Where have you been all my life?!
-Happy Sumo. I must eat there while I am in Utah. I love me some Sushi.
-How Reese & I balance each other out so well. When he is having a bad day I can be the positive "cheer leader" he needs & when I am having a bad week day he goes above & beyond to help me out.
-Being able to write something out, make me feel better, then delete it so I'm not making certain people mad when they read it.

Ok friends, that's all I've got this week. I'd love it if you left at least one thing you're thankful for in a comment. Come on guys, help me be positive!